Skyline of a 'sain' life

Glimps from the Past

2012-02-08T11:02:00.002+05:30

This is the first instalment of a collection from my schooldays, will post the rest of them in the near future!

What is it?

2012-01-13T14:40:00.003+05:30

What is it?

How is it?

Where does it come from?

How do I know which it is?

Is this it?

Is it?

How would I know?

Who would?

Will I ever know?

When will I know?

Do I want to know?

About it?

Happy New Year!

2012-01-04T22:32:00.001+05:30

Another second, another minute, another day in a new week make way for another month, yet here we are just being our selves but holding the calender foranother year, with 362 days of hope, opportunity & happiness left ahead of us. All missery stuck in the old calender. It is your attitude that makes lifea sucess, have a good one this year!

She wants to be happy!

2012-01-04T17:26:00.002+05:30

she is sweet

want to play laugh & dance

stay happy forever

everyone think of her

cute and innocent

she like it that way

want to stay away

from the cruel big ones

under shadow of parents

but....

the world will not let her be

it will give her fear

worry to be with her all time

sorrow that burry her in tears

hurt always lingers around...

What can she do?....

Where should she go??

Will she survive

With all the gifts from the world

She did.. does.. and continue to be

she look back...

wonders...

cute and innocent still, is she??

play, laugh and dance can she??

was she happy??

Will she be forever??

What is Love?

2011-09-23T19:31:00.001+05:30

This was my comment on a friends post and thought it came out nice! hehe :D

"Love is friendship, caring enough to want another person happy it is everywhere and there are many forms of it too, love for mother/father, brother/sister, friend orr..... it could be a person you want to share your life with, all your smiles and sorrows, anything and everything important to you or any thing not important. You maynot know it when it is there, you cant touch it, smell it. But you will always feel it, and it will make you happy to feel it too. At least that is what I think love is all about! does it exist in real life? I think so!" What do you think?

A wish for the End!

2011-09-23T19:29:00.001+05:30

Think I have one wish

Feel it ought to come true..

Cant take it no more

Why I know not!

This aint true...

Admit it I cannot do

Yet I have a wish

A wish to end it all

A wish to cure the pain

like a bird with no brain

I struggle with the

Wish I have

It give hope in a way

To take it all

To bare the pain

To raise the brain

TO erase the past

To lay the path

Yet.....

The coming true

is an action I do

This I can not do

Call me a cowerd

Yes I am

will not pick up that knife

nor the pistol

jump in the river

walk to the sea

fear prevent me

keep me stuck here

frozen in my seat

wishing...

just wishing

That Death walk to me

as I will not to him....

Because...

it is the wish

of the end for all

A wish for Death

is my Deathwish!

Vote for my friend!

2011-09-22T09:55:00.000+05:30

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A thought of consequences!

2011-09-13T18:01:00.002+05:30

A thought I have
it cannot be said
it cannot be written
it will not be painted
what should I do
tear it away and dump it in a bin?
tuck it away deep within?
and not turn that leaf again?

but
nagging me it comes back
pinching me ever so lightly
refuses to be binned or tucked away
the thought is just there telling me
"Idiot, I am never going away, why do you bother?"
I give up and let it be

yet
I can live with it
with consequences

Me and my Creative Dream

2011-07-08T10:52:00.004+05:30

I remember being asked what I wanted to do and I answered that someday I wanted to incorporate creativity in everything I do. This was about 6 years back and that time I wanted to sound cool, also this idea was something like window shopping, you know when you see some thing and feel that it would be nice to have. It felt nice if I could do it.

From that to today there were times when doughts arised about my creativity, but I felt it in me all the time. Today creativity is why I earn money. Creativity is what make me happy. Creativity is how I escape through tight spots. I have creativity incorporated in my life in a ways I did not forsee that time. I have not fully realised that dream yet. But I see and feel myself being lead there. Thus I am in a way satisfied with my life today. With all the ups and downs in it. Although I have no idea what is instore for me tomorrow!

Waiting!!!!

2011-03-30T11:00:00.001+05:30

It was a very long wait..

A life time to be precise...

I have looked far and wide...

North South East and West

Even in the News...

But not till now have I seen anything...

Yet the wait is not over...

Got to wait just a lil bit longer...

Hope I’ll survive the ordeal...

What is multi-tasking? Can I multi task?

2011-03-29T21:52:00.001+05:30

Now I thought I knew what multi-tasking is, but then I successfully managed to confuse my self resently! So I thought I must share this thought and confuse all of you in turn! [Sorry about that could not resist it]

I can do a wide range of work as in where ever I go I find myself doing almost all the types of work that would be available. Which does not always classify in one category. So I have been called a jack of all trades quite a few times. This made me think that I can multi-task.

But.......

This bit of the story I sort of knew before but it sort of ... hit me on the head resently. I was really concentrating on some thing and some one wanted to ask me a question, well I didn't hear her until I was done with it and my brain came out of totally. The point is that when I concentrate on something really heard I don't see or hear any thing. But this is also conditional, Say all I have to do is copy some information from one place to another and there is a requirement to keep on doing this quite a number of times. This is a time when I can talk to people get invovled in the conversation going around. But say doing this write up or some other task demand my full attention I don't even know if I get killed on my seat.

So what does it mean? Can I or Can I not multi-task?

What do you guys think?

Can you multi-task? What do you think is 'multi-tasking'?

Title

2011-01-06T21:04:00.002+05:30

Well I am in a mood today! Good? Bad? I have no idea. It is a wired mood. I feel good actually as if I am strong enough for anything. This is a step up from what I've been going through lately. What to do when people don't operate on the same wave length as I do.

So here I am writing after a very long time. I've become philosophical lately. I've always been a bit of it. But recently Ive seen how much I can go. It is so annoying. I've got an explanation to everything when, all I want is to crawl into my dismantlement and mope. But no I have to know exactly why this is happening to me and understand it perfectly and tell my self that I have to do the time when I have to do the time. Annoying ha?

Well I should not be talking about all that today, when am actually feeling a lot better and a bit extra nutty. Or may be I should share a few views of mine with you. I think not not today my writing mood has passed. Starting to get sleepy.

Booooo!

Randome lines

2010-10-12T23:46:00.003+05:30

Think hard! why? Think clear? better! Harder the thought is unclear it gets! NOT TRUE ALL THE TIME, but is easy on the brain when it is just clear, coz am having a headache off thinking hard ;)

Depression, is a form of self pity, annoyance, disappointment, hopelessness and a lot more, however it made me sleepy last weekend. Sooooo annoying.

Easy life? Easy Target to hurt! Hard life prepare you for the worst! But Hard is HARD!

Is free Lonely? or is LONELY FREE? does everything good and bad have a price except for lonely? why? coz it makes life interesting?

why does everything come at full speed no breathing space! to the extent of losing count of where you are in life! but nothing happens when it is a boring life same ol same ol.

Conversion to become a business women – 3 weeks!

How do you figure people out? How do you know if they are good or bad? First impressions are not always right! they can be forged!

THIS HAS BEEN MY LIFE for the past two months (coincidentally I complete 2 months on Saturday)

Catering Tips

2010-10-12T23:41:00.001+05:30

I was browsing for a few tips online to share with you the other day for the office blog. Take a look at what I found!

http://www.eventcateringideas.com/selfcatering.php

8 Self Catering Tips

Planning any event takes a lot of work especially if you are self catering the event. Shopping, cooking, decorating and general organization can be a full-time job. Depending on the size, you might need to rent cooking equipment, tables, chairs and even a tent. If there will be entertainment you might find yourself scouting out disc jockeys or a band.

Although it's a lot of work, catering an event can be very rewarding and doing it yourself can save a lot of money. Here are eight self catering tips that you can use to make the job easier.

1. Organization. You want some sort of a system that allows you to easily access everything you need for the event. This includes lists and notes which might be organized in a spreadsheet on the computer as well as the supplies that you will need for the event which should be kept together in the same area.

2. Make Lists. When you are self catering any event, lists are your friend, you want lists of contact information for all the people helping with the party as well as lists of the invited guests. How about a list of all the equipment you need to rent? Of course a list of all the food you have to buy is a necessity as well as the supplies like tablecloths, napkins and dinnerware. Don't forget to make a to-do list so you can check off when you've accomplished all the other things on the other lists.

3. Make a menu. You want to figure out everything you are going to serve from appetizers to desserts and don't forget to include drinks. Then you need to figure out all the ingredients that you need to make the items that you won't be buying pre made. When making a menu, take into consideration any food allergies or food preferences that you know the guests might have.

4. Shop around. Once you've made your lists and you know what you need to buy, you can save yourself some money by shopping around. Go to your local Sam's Club or bargain club and compare prices. Don't be afraid to look online where you might be able to save money especially for things like decorations, napkins, imitations and dinnerware.

5. Schedule it out. Once you know what you want to serve, you will need to come up with a timeline so that the foods are ready at the appropriate time. If you going to be setting up and decorating as well include this in the timeline. A lot of the things can be made in advance and then kept frozen up until the day of the event. Some other things you might be able to make a day or two ahead of time. Even if you have help self catering the event, you want to include some wiggle room in your schedule just in case something goes wrong.

6. Guest count. You want to be sure you have enough food but having too much would be wasteful. Be sure you get a good guest count so you know how much to make.

7. Throw it out. You can make things a lot easier on yourself if you use disposable dinnerware. It might not look as nice in your event but you won't have to deal with washing dishes and this will be a huge timesaver.

8. Enjoy! Just because you are self catering the event doesn't mean you can't enjoy it. If you are well-organized and plan for things you can participate in the event as well as host it!
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http://www.hobbyfarms.com/farm-marketing-and-management/10-catering-tips.aspx

10 Catering Tips

If starting a home catering business is your dream, consider these tips from a professional caterer.

Photo Courtesy Kate Savage
Kate Savage, a Lexington, Ky., professional caterer and writer, has learned to persist even in difficult circumstances.

By Kate Savage

If starting a home catering business from your hobby farm is your dream, consider these 10 tips from a professional caterer.

1. Be realistic.

Catering is not glamourous!
It’s hard work and long hours.
When others play, you work.

Try these truths on for size before you invest any money, time or effort into an extension of your endeavours. Only the strong survive!

2. Cool as a cucumber.Above all you must be able to handle stress and never appear flustered.

And that’s not just your stress, but also the “freak-out” levels of stress your client might be experiencing.

Realise what’s at stake for them. Trust and powerlessness can be scary emotions for anyone.

3. Deadlines, deadlines, deadlines.Time is unforgiving in the catering business. Five or ten minutes leeway is acceptable when serving, but half an hour late is not, unless the client has pushed back the clock. Are you reasonably punctual? Examine your ability to deliver in a timely manner.

4. Find your own niche.Remember there are many categories of catering; from barbeque and beans to pheasant under glass.

Establish your own area of excellence and interest. Something you enjoy, something that makes your product different.

If successful, you’ll be making lots of it!

5. Listen to your client.Naturally your thoughts and suggestions are what they are looking for, but most clients have some preconceived ideas regards their event. Prize these out. They’ll provide you with guidance and insights. It’s the client you’re trying to please.

6. Never apologise for your price.Your product will always cost more than the frozen semi-equivalent bought from the warehouse megamarket.

Don’t be brow-beaten or back off your price with a client that wants to negotiate a “discount”, or promises you all their friends’ events. Nobody wins.

7. Start early.Catering is like Christmas. If you leave it until the last minute, you’ll wish you’d started sooner. Many things can be organized in advance such as rentals and the work force.

Over time, you’ll become familiar with the natural sequence. Until then, make lots of lists.

8. Friendly and flexible.

Ten minutes before serving you’re told to hold dinner – the guest of honour’s flight is late.

Can you slap on a smile and reassure the hostess that you can ratchet down and maintain the meal indefinitely in a holding pattern? Do it anyway!

9. Remember your place.Probably an old fashioned idea, but it’s easy to get caught up in the excitement of an event.

A good rule of thumb for you and especially any extrovert servers you might employ is “if you’re having too much fun, then you’re not working.”

10. Belle of the Ball

Clients love to know they have thrown a social smash. Share some of the comments and compliments that came your way.

Part of the point is to glow in the glorious aftermath of the event – and that goes for you too!

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Earing, earings a world of earings!

2010-02-28T19:20:00.011+05:30

Yet again a very late post. Unfortunately I have no internet connection these days, and will be a while before I start blogging as frequently as I used to.

Let me go straght in to the point of this post (I would burst if I don't). I am starting a side business.

Do you remember the earings I've made for the Townhall at Office and the Dancing Examination? I decided to make more of them and make some money out of it.

Girls, how meny times have you found your self wondering "Where would I get the perfect pair of earings for this outfit?" or thinking "No earing matches this dress the colors are all wrong" or "Why aren't there earings to go with all these colors in my dress". Well all that worry will be gone, when my stuff comes in to the market. Coz they are made out of cloth and it is not going to be very hard to match to your outfit. Here is a sneak peak of what you will get in the near future. Make sure you pick one up, if you come across them in a store. For you self, Girlfriend, Mother, Sister any one who would like to have one.

I am assuming that you are intersted in hearig (reading) about how I got this Idea (let me tell you even if you are not interested ;-) ).

It started with the Townhall at office. It was a "last minute shopping for the out fit" occation. So we (Mom and I) bought a Saree, but couldn't find a satisfactory pair of earings. Since there were some extra material from the blouse piece, I decided to make them my self. They were a hit! I got a few good complements and most importantly I was satisfied with them. They were just perfect for the occation. The second pair came about with the Dancing Examination. I didn't have a pair of earings, that suited the occation and matched the Blouse Mom made for me or the Skirt. So I did the same as earlier. Only diference is that this time I used a pair I already had along with the cloth from the blouse. This encouraged me to make a third pair that I loved and lost (one earing). It was the fourth one that made me want to do it as a business.

Not all the earings I make look normal. Some of them kind of look like the designer wear we see on TV ;-) (I think!). What I mean is that they look good but you will think twice before actually picking them up coz they are kind of unusual. Only one way to find out if you would actually like them. Put it out in the market.

I am still in the process of making the lot. I need to figure out a name for the brand. Should I categorise them? that is some thing I am still wondering. The initial lot will have hand written lables as it is cheeper and gives a personalised look and feel to it. Because that is what they are all about to look custom made.

I have a lot of future plans for these including a showroom only for earings. That has to wait. Got to go now, have a date with a pair of earings!

Allo Allo

2009-07-01T20:02:00.002+05:30

Sorry for disappearing again. I keep apologizing but no action taken. Will attend to it once am done with this post. So where was I?

I was at the bronze awards ceremony. Remember I did the dancing exams? Once that is over they had the awards ceremony. I invited my dear friend hijinx and my mom along to witness me getting a certificate and do a ten word vote of thanks. It was fun to go to the party. I enjoyed the event and the getting ready part to it. Only regret is that didn't get to help out enough with teh decor, because that weekend was a very busy one.

We had this gathering of my colleagues from office. A barbeque, I loved every minuite of it, eventhough I got a bit bored at times, there was no music so we had to sing ourselves. I ended up using a table as a drum/bera/thabla (call what ever you can call it) and realised if ever I am to learn an istrument in the future it is definetely going to be the Thabla. Had a load of pics taken unfortunately cant upload it now. Will do that in the near future.

Then we had the 5 year celibration at office, its been 5 years since they started and I will be completing 5 in september. Happy am I...? Not so sure. I feel it has been tooo looong. Oh yeah the next topic I have to talk about because I call it a shadow of my most scariest nightmare in life. My mom got a false chest pain, i.e we thought it was and I had to rush back from teh celibrations at office. But thank god it was only a muscle pain. She was working hard lately to clear our house of Dengi Mosquitos.

Let me tell you guys about this week in a brand new post. Coz I have a lot to talk about.

Notice how I have misspelt the word 'the' in this post. How annoying I keeep doing this. type the e before the h. why? ...

Why?

2009-06-04T18:20:00.002+05:30

Hi guys long time no see?

Yeah I know I went missing again. Like I said I was dancing hard for the medal exams. Finally it is behind me. Well I marks between 81-84 for all six dances. Which means I am recommended for the bronze medals. But if I had gotten 85 I would have been highly recommended. Yeah.............(sigh!). I'll take what I got. I could have performed better with the dancing partner I had, but he had to fly on the day of my exams. So I had to change partners in a hurry.

Then I got sick during the week end a stomach ache, due to bad judgment on what to eat after missing a meal. Which annoyed me a lot in the end due to the head ache that persisted on staying back. Thank god it went off by Monday in time for work.

I have a question for you guys... how annoying can a conductor be. No not a music conductor. but the conductor we meet everyday. I get the 177 AC buses usually to get to work. So I get in the bus and sit down as usual. Then I give 30 bucks and ask for a ticket to office which cost 25. He wanted a 5 rupee so he doesn't have to give me the change he had. I didn't honestly have any coins with me this time. (There are times when I do have change n still reply no). He did give me a 5 rupee coin, which I believe was the last coin he had at the moment. If giving a coin take about 5 secs. He very reluctantly took about 50 secs or more. Would have taken even longer or not give me my balance at all. Well I know this was not a big deal, didn't think it was until...........

It was time to to get off the bus. I was reading in the bus as usual. But I was aware that I had to get off, about 2 buss halts before my destination he poked my shoulder and tell me that I have to get off. I was quite surprised (since I was absorbed in the book didn't remember the previous incident), but packed my things and got up without a word. I was standing near the door with a colleague who was in the same bus, waiting for it to stop. When this idiot come up front and squeeze through between me and the bar near the door in front of the first seat, which I was holding on to and step nicely on my foot. My first reaction was to get surprised. The next was to scream coz it hurt. He was practically standing on my foot. but no he would not back up. Lucky me/him the bus stopped and I had to get off. I was telling my colleague about these incidents and to see he had noticed that the conductor is particularly rude. Why do people do this. Dont they have any decensy? I just dont undestand. (shaking head side ways)! :(

Anyways. have a nice week. My internet at home is gone for a while. I might not put up a lot of stuff for some time. Or maybe I will. (now that I am usign the internet in office for this. :)

Watercolor

2009-05-16T12:31:00.001+05:30

I was playing around with some tuts recently, this is one of the images I came up with.

Darkness

2009-05-14T19:20:00.002+05:30

Hi guys

Sorry I was gone for a long long time. I got sick for over two weeks. It was horrible. Then I was still recovering from it and not in any mood to blog or to even talk with some of my friends. Felt so lonely and annoyed at the whole world. Below is exactly how I felt during that time.

In the broad day light
where thoughts float
around with the darkness
Darkness from the sky
Darkness filled in the heart
Darkness from the night
Darkness in the corner
Darkness in the heart
It is the shadow I see
of you.........
Black in color .... no white around
I begin to hate you
any thing that you touch
but it is all the darkness in my thoughts
that made you black

I hate you for all my faults
I hate you for the mistakes I do
I hate you for the accidents in life
I hate all of you for just being you!
but...................

Reality await me
I am yet to understand
that it is I who I hate
It is my world that is falling
you are just you
but I am the darkness
in my world
I need to wake from this nightmare
before it consumes me
before I lose sanity

At the end of this stream of thoughts it is time for medicine. Then I would go back into the darkness. Now I am suddenly seeing the light. It is as if I am seeing it for the first time.

Thank god I am better and back to normal!

Back at it! (Blogging? Dancing? Both!)

2009-04-20T10:45:00.003+05:30

Hi guys

Long time no see ha? I know. I've treated my readers very bad, and wouldn't be surprised if I lost some of them. I hope they will come back eventually.

Well the thing is that I had to think a lot lately. I usually don't take a lot of thing serious.
Don't have a lot of problems either. Even if every single day is a struggle at times (or even most of the times), but most of the pressing issues I chose not to deal with until I really need to get them out of harms way.
This time period had been just that. I had to think a lot and plant for a way to solve the issues.
When I think I like no inferences. Don't confide in a lot of people either. Only those who are closest to me.
Right now thinking is kind of sorting its way out, and I needed a break from thinking. So here I am blogging again.

I think I should start how my life had been for the past two weeks. The week before the last was very slow and eventful at work! The last week was super cool coz I was at home on leave. Good way to think. Stay at home no movies or books. you have no choice but think. but I did have movies and two books to keep myself occupied. Did the thinking bit too.

I would log in here and think of something to write about. But nothing will come to my head. Today I think I do have some stuff to talk about.

Did I tell you how much I love dancing! (love it loads). We are getting ready for the broze exams. And a few things all of us had to worry about are - partner, dress, date, time and music. These exclude the steps and other stuff we learn at the class. I got the partner thing sorted.
Didn't want to go partnerless and turn out to dance with the dumbest student in the class and stumble all the way infront of the judges.
So me and a couple of my friends were bugging this girl from the senior batch to help us find good partners. The other two got this guy to dance with them. well the same person can dance with different people. as long as only two people dance for one exam.
I was so worried. I was wondering who would be a good partner, who I am comfortable with. Coz the guy has to lead and I will have to follow.
I saw this guy who I danced with onece, he was so sweet, and helped me with some thing I get wrong all the time. So I asked this friend if he was good. She was like yeah he is good.
So I ran up to him and asked him If he would do me the favour of dancing with me for the exams. I still feel awkword for doing that coz usually it is the guy who ask the girl even for a dance. He is even not a close friend. I wouldn't feel bad if he was. But I just do riht now. But then it is my exam.

So I get to dance with him after that only on yesterday. He is really really good with his dancing. Just the kind of person I need for a partner for this exam. Thank god I got him to come for the exam!

I am not nervious (am I)! I try not to think about it til it get closer. I have one month to go.

Nisadas... fro good days at school

2009-04-12T14:09:00.005+05:30

Both of these were from competitions and the theme was to write some thing about the moon.
I know they are wired. No I don't hate the moon. It is just that I was tired of the normal beauty of the night kind of thing

Delicate! The flower?

2009-04-02T22:16:00.003+05:30

This weeks thursday challenge! It is crush able! very!

Seeking for attention! or is it love!

2009-04-02T22:01:00.008+05:30

People being extremely pretty/handsome, having extraordinary talent or being extremely stupid could be a few reasons why they grab our attention. There are others who does a lot of things to get that attention too.

Tell me how many of you notice people seeking for attention lately. They might scream out when every one in the room is silent or some thing close enough. You might think that they act like kids. Don't we all act the same at times. What if you are a kid who really need attention? Would you scream out and say, hey people I am an orphan I really need a hug or some comfort. I met a few kids who actually acted that way and asked for it simply because they don't have someone who would give that attention on a regular basis.

It was the birthday of one of the kids in this orphanage. So some people from our office decided to do something for the 23 kids in the ages of 2 to 5. We took some balloons decor and food for them and some coloring books too. We were asked not to bring Toys but company, because that is what they really needed. So there we were with the balloons all blown up and tied to a string, after taking some pics before going in for the mission.

We went to the small play area for the tiny tots and started hanging the crape paper and balloons on the swing slide and etc.. got a table to keep the cake and the sweets. one of the matrons brought the birthday girl. She was so sweet and silent.

Then came the little task force with tiny chairs for them to sit, their task was to have fun and get all the attention and love from us while we are there.

They were seated in a circle and I was standing close to some of them. When I felt that some one slapped me from behind... To see it was this little girl called Achini who really crave for attention and that is one way she show that. She also use the other tactics like cry occasionally, or get you to carry her. All those kids there were like that, not all of them would hit you thogh(it was Achini's specialty). They would come to you with their arms spread asking you to carry them or just come up to you and hug or simply cry. Achini actually got me to feed her the piece of cake she was eating. This other little boy got me to feed him the milk he was drinking. They also loved jumping on your lap even without your permission to sit on it or roll about on it. That is what we were there for afterall, and they knew that too.

After all the feeding we got about to hand over the coloring books. We brought them over so we can color with them and interact with them. It was fun to help them out and color with them. But it also got to a stage that every kid wanted to stick to the adult who were with them and wouldn't let go.The problem was that there weren't enough adults to go around. So the beast called jealosy turned up to make things worse. He made some of them steal the other persons pastal or the book. Few kids were crying towards the end.

Finally it was time to leave. I really diddn't want to leave, but had to. By this time the birthday girl had gotten attached to my friend and wouldn't get off his hands. She would go looking for him and get him to carry her. We all thought she was going to cry soon after we left. Wonder how they all are now!!!!

They need all the attention they can get. and it is never wrong to seek attention coz it is needed in life. But what you do to get it is the big Q here. Also give away as much attention as ou can today. Please ... for the sake of those who really don't have anyone to do it for them!

Willing to talk? no not yet... maybe later!

2009-04-02T20:37:00.003+05:30

I know I have not been very conversational lately! Probably lost most of my readers too! This can happen occationally! First I lose controll then I go silent! That is how I get ready to deal with my issues. So YES my X is definitely back in my life and have given the chance he asked for..... I hope it will work! But lets not talk about it further coz I really dont know what I think of it. so lets leave it at that for now, coz there are more pressing matters at hand!

Today is a wired Day! I got word that I will need to make a decision on some thing soon but that is also a very hard decision. Don't want to talk about it much either. Until I really know more about it.

Let me get into something that I am willing to share today!

But That is worth a post of its own. Watch this space for more (-_*)

for Thursday Challenge! (Building - hut)

2009-03-27T09:42:00.003+05:30

This is my submission for this week!

This is a traditional hut of the farmers in Sri Lanka! (not that they live in them now a days!) The small hut mounted on a stand is called a Vee bissa where we store the harvest!

rainbow in the skyline

2009-03-25T11:06:00.002+05:30

I see colores
lots of them
they hover above me
around me
and all over me

the wet breeze announce
the end of thunder and storm
it is time to light the
world with the shimmer
of sun light

the moon is so bright
light is so nice
warm and soothing
life look great
with hope and calm

yet what is that dark cloud
that loom near by?

I hate life

2009-03-23T17:56:00.004+05:30

Life - is wired
I thought I loved it
but now i hate it
will love it again
tomorrow
Why don't life leave me alone
to be on my own
where not one can hurt
or I cant hurt them

But then
It will be terribly lonely
And I hate to be alone
now I am confused
Cant I just be me
and do every thing right
or every thing I do is right
even murder!

I don't like life right now !

Why do shadows from past come back? Do we put them behind us or beside us?

2009-03-23T17:31:00.002+05:30

I really need an answer to that question!

This is unfair just when I decide that it is time to move on, Life grab me and hold me back not letting me go. And my mother she teams up with my enemy (X-boyfriend)and she helps him. How fair is this? He decide to leave and I have to leave, now when he want to come back I have to let go of all my pain suffering & guard(because my mom is involved). No I am not going to do that.

I am so angry no not angry confused and very annoyed to write anymore! This is annoying! and have no idea what I've written. cant be bothered reading either!
I hate this.

Story of the bag

2009-03-20T12:42:00.003+05:30

Long time no see -- ha? Yeah was a bit busy, was lost in a lot of images (*_-) !

anyways here is a story I had to upload!

It is a picture story! and the narrator is a little bag called "D" am stealing his owners nickname!

So here is the story!

I went out one day with my owner and my buddy (her new phone)
She went to meet her friends... I think she was supposed to give them a treat.
We were just lying on the table while she was scribbling away, til her friends decided to turn up.

Then came a little girl with a loud voice and a camera.. to see she is one of them too.

She got so exited when she saw me and was taking my pictures. I should admit it I did enjoy posing for her in the beginning.

Then I got tired!

She didn't realise that I was tired, She kept clicking away! I got annoyed with her.

She wouldn't stop so I decided to let her be and listen to some music!

But It was a fun visit all in all!

Fear make you strong!

2009-03-15T17:40:00.002+05:30

This might be a strange topic, but this idea suddenly popped in my head at work one day!
Was trying to write a poem out of it for some time now. here is what I came up with!

Fear

It make you unstable
you lose control or freeze
you cry or die
but it also make you strong

It is why you don't get close to danger
It is why you watch your back
It is why you take care not to lose
It is why u are immune to emotion
It is why u smile all the while
It is what make you think before you act
It is what make a mother protect a child
It is what keep you close to your loved ones

It is the underlying reason behind most of our actions

Take fear in your palm keep it close
Do not let it consume you but teach you
Some of the important lessons in life!

Thoughts for the Wishing well! - Why I need a Tablet notebook (So bad)

2009-03-13T12:24:00.005+05:30

I meant to write this a few days back and even wrote it down so I won't forget. But my life is such that I seriously need to find a wishing well to put these thoughts in it!

Why do I need a tablet Notebook

Because my PC is currently unconscious it suddenly decided not to boot up and I need to take it to my friend who will fix it for me (Bummer :(( ! )

Because I really need a mobile computer, So I can use it while I watch TV, before going to sleep, at Dinner, on my way to work (hopefully if mom let me take it)
Because Then I can read e-books, go online, and watch movies at my bed (and not bother mom too much at night - she hate to sleep when the light is on, my computer is very close to her bed)

Because I love sketching and don't have a scanner! (Taking pics of them and uploading them are a bit of a hassle and would like to do otherwise) (Why It has to be a Tablet not a normal Laptop)

Why I cant get it!

TOooooooooooooooooooooooo expensive! I need to get a really good one that cost about 2Lks of LKR because I wouldn't be buying one for years to come and cant be bothers putting up with fixing it when it crash.

So this one goes in the wishing well with a 1 rupee 'coz I cant find a penny!

Ruins

2009-03-12T11:17:00.004+05:30

Broken In need of repair is this Thursday's Challenge! Here are the ruins at Belilena

Dancing again!

2009-03-11T10:04:00.004+05:30

I am fairly certain after this post you are going to get fed up of me talking of dancing! So I will mention the dancing part about last Saturday, first so you will forget about it by the time you finish reading this post!

So here goes... I was dancing...... n dancing.... n dancing...... for three hours. Only breaks were the time I went off for water! and loved it so much. I am still dancing (in my head)

Now about the evening!

This was a function at office, something like a high profile business meeting with loads of fun at the end!

It started off bad for me! I was supposed to be there by 5:30 but was still stitching my blouse by 5:30 so it was 6:29 when I got there just before the presentations began.
Let me describe what I was wearing! It was a bright yellow sari with the shawl part of it taken from the back and brought it in front replacing the sleeve of the blouse, as the blouse was sleeveless. And very ethnic looking earrings, that I made by my self! (I love them both the sari and the earrings)

I managed to go in time for the Design team picture, but not of the entire group of people who was there. (sigh..!)

Then we had presentations by the senior members in the team about the future plans and what we achieved last year! Then came one of my favorite parts in the evening. Award presentation! Guess who got the quality is the key champion award from the design team! (yup you are right in thinking it was "yours truly")

We had a fabulous dinner! quite different from the usual. Then came the Dancing... you know how that went!

Got home late, sleepy and with my knee caps in my hand as they fell off on the way out! (really!) fortunately they mended over night.

Had a fabulous evening! tiring but enjoyable!
Will put up pics soon after I get them! coz I left my cam at home!

Birtday spirit changes!

2009-03-05T21:43:00.004+05:30

I was ideally supposed to write this two days back. Bu I had this strange feeling and didn't feel like writing about it.

Usually when my birthday get closer I would tell about it to every one around me! But this time I didn't bother telling or even bother about getting something new to wear. I only bought it because of my mother.

I went to work in the morning and Started work as usual. I have to admit that I did feel very happy! but not hyperactive like I usually was. No one wished me when I walked in. The strangest thing is that I knew and I didn't even hope that they would remember,It somehow didn't matter.

Only when I offered the milk rise to my friend, he asked me what was special today. Then he remembered that my birthday was supposed to be close. Even then he didn't wish me.. he was like - "It is not you birthday today? Is it?"

Well I just had to grin back. :D

Then came all the wishes. Later I gave them some cake (Lycheese Gateau - Yum yum)

I got loads of hugs and wishes and no gifts except for flowers.

And in a strange way it really did not matter! It was like just another happy day! didn't have the urge to to any thing stupid or special!

Does this come with you being quarter century old?
Or is it that I am finally growing up?
But I like this strange clamness!
Wonder how long it will hold!
It is like I can take in all the worries in the world!
(Thank fully nothing remotely bad happened for the past two days!)

I did have a truly HAPPY BIRTHDAY! coz I got the wishes of ALL the people I counted as being very close.

Thursday Challenge!

2009-03-05T20:03:00.006+05:30

Found the Thursday challenge on mickmather 's blog! It looked like fun. So I will be participating in this too!

Here is my submission for today!

Thanks mickmather!

What reading is for me

2009-03-05T12:47:00.002+05:30

As much as I love it, this is the truth!

Freedom of Flight!

2009-03-03T21:28:00.005+05:30

Heavenly dancing! (the elixir in my life)

2009-03-03T11:08:00.006+05:30

Dance Fever!

2009-03-03T09:42:00.003+05:30

Dance is a fever! oh yeah! got to experience it in a major way this Saturday!

Oh boy how I loved it. It was worth all the effort. Including the incident when the zipper of the dress coming off half hour before I had to leave for the dance. Cool ha! I didn't have blood in my body by the time I got the zip fixed and got in to the cab.

I was supposed to go to hijinx's place and leave with her. Half way through the journey I realized that I forgot to bring my ticket to we had to go back 4 km to get my ticket from home! It started out disastrous. DAMN!

Finally after getting my dear friend ready and getting some pics before the make up goes off, we were on our way!

I was nervous coz we didn't know meny people in the crowd and couldn't find a table! It was annoying trying to find one too. All the good tables and the ones had empty seats were reserved! Finally we managed to find a table where there were a few afamilier faces!

Then the dancing started boy was it fun! I am still dancing when ever I hear music, even in the bus. But a bit subtle than the time I dance at home.

My most favourite part about it was the twirling of the dress and being spinned round and round and round!

I so want to do that agan!

Time to get off the beach

2009-02-24T20:34:00.003+05:30

Another inspiration that hit me on Saturday!

A huge body of water
around me
knee deep waves
are one of my joys
seeing the apparently
still sea I spend
hours before
realization hit me
time to leave

(I am still at the beach - some one get me out I am mesmerized!)

Looking upto/at/for you!

2009-02-24T19:38:00.004+05:30

This was inspired by a family who were at the pool in the mount hotel! They had two cute little kids!

two little steps I keep
look up and see you smile
your approval it was

Word by word combined to be a verse
then you complement me ....

Letter by letter I write for you to admire
you agree I can write nice...

I see you hand in hand
guiding me throughout school
What a comfort it is
for a a lot of effort is needed

but....
I start work get my first salary
Look behind to ask what should I do father
I see only my mother standing alone
so I look around
yet long gone you were

And I am still looking ... for you.....

Bored.. really?

2009-02-24T17:16:00.001+05:30

I have no work..........
but I do............
A lot of it if I think I wanted to.......
but do I?

I am too lazy
am I really?

Maybe I am sleepy....
But I feel wide awake!

Should I go there or stay here...
Right now it is nowhere!!!!!!

May be it is all a dream..
No this is life...

So live it minute by minute!

Out in the beach!

2009-02-24T10:08:00.000+05:30

Today I am going to tell about my week end! not the whole weekend but specifically the Saturday!

We have two foreigners who are visiting us at work, so we decided to take them out to the beach, because it will be so much fun! and FUN it was!

We met at the mount hotel beach in the morning! and the view was spectacular! (did I mention I love the beach :-D )

There was an abandoned boat that fascinated me. It looked so lonely in the middle of nowhere, couldn't resist the urge to take a picture for my collection. So this post is going to be a presentation of the photographs as well as a account of what happened.)

We decided to sit at the seafood cove, and teach our friends from Philippines how to play cricket! Well.... I did not help much with that because I am not very good with cricket. But managed to get some pics of the guys in action!

Soon all of us got bored, and the fun began..............

I handed my camera over to a friend, because if I had it with me I would take pictures of every thing else but me! (Then I would have to answer to my mother. She will kinda.. throw a fit and ask me what did I do beside taking pics.)

With my hands free from the camera I had to find some thing to keep me occupied. That is when I started building a sand castle, which decided to fall off the at the slightest touch! to make matters better (sarcastic smile) my dear friend decided to jump on top of it. I just had to chase after him!

The funnest part about it is how the others relate this incident as he is almost (not exactly) twice as tall as I am (imagine me trying to catch up with him)! Although he was kind enough to stop and let me hit him, I was too tired of running, I just could not do that! (This is going to be one of those incidents narrated to the people who were not there to witness it. Then retold to bug me, when ever the opportunity arrive!).

We had some photo shooting sessions soon after. (most of them were wacky pictures!). Some future profile pictures too.

Since we were so close to the sea it was about time we jump in. The sun was so hot some of the guys decided to stay back where it is safe and shady. But those of us who couldn't stay out of water had to jump in.
Me being so scared of water(not the water exactly but the fear of drowning I think! this is why I cant swim yet!)I had to stay close to shore and wade. Which was almost as good as a sea bath because some of the waves reached close to my head. When it did not I lost my balance and fell in water. I heard some thing nearly snap in my knee during the wading session. But it was no major injury (Thank god!). After a few hours of screaming , covering people with sand and throwing sand at each other, we were very hungry for the fabulous lunch they offered!

Unfortunately we had to leave the beach soon after lunch! But my friend and I decided that we were gong to the pool. The others were too lazy and idiotic to leave us behind! (I have to admit some of them did have genuine reasons - other than just falling asleep even after promising to return :-P)

I was blown away by the view near the pool, so while she was doing a few laps in the pool I caught some fabulous pictures

I decided.... when I can afford to buy a house.. It most probably is going to be overlooking the sea with a balcony I can sit in! (nice dream ha...!)

I am tempted to go to the beach every week end! ;-)!

La Cucaracha’s day out!

2009-02-22T12:38:00.001+05:30

Hi everybody!
I am going to be your narrator today. (a lousy one too!)

Where should I start?
Here we go..............

Today we are following a character called Rob..

Is it a short form for Robby? Robert? Berty?
Well I don't know and don't care either......

Let’s begin our journey with Rob.............

He suddenly felt very scared... just scared.... he doesn’t know what to do, where to go, even moving a step ahead was very hard.

He looked around doesn’t see any difference only the darkness. PITCH BLACK!
He feels so trapped, senseless, as if… as if some one had dropped him in the middle of a dessert.

"If only... If only I could see"

Saying that made him realize what was wrong all this time...

"Open your eyes you... idiot...." he mutters.
And slowly as his eyelids separate he see light
Then the wooden floor, and the very dusty wall..

He only see the wall close to him, and can't locate where the other walls are.
Simply because, it is a massive hall which seem to have no ending…

"Where is this place?"
"How did I get here? Sure didn't walk in on my own"
"Didn't even take a ride for sure"

"Let me think, last I remember was lying down on the roof in the super hot sun wondering..........."

"Okay..... Let’s try to get this place figured out"
"May be there is a way out in this direction"

He decide to walk away from the wall

He is walking a long way when he realized that the wall is getting away from him and don't see the other end of the room yet....
"Okay looks like I've stumbled upon the room of no ending"
"I wonder what is up there" and he looks up to see

"Amazing I have never seen such big roof tiles.........."
"Hey am I...... In… a.... ceiling?"

Okay where have we landed now.... in an episode from Gulliver's travels? Or part of the wonderland Alice visited? Well at least we didn't come across anything scary YET!

Hold on a sec there, what is creeping behind Rob?

He turned around just in time to see a huge............

"COCKROACH!"
"He is twice my size too......... better be on my way before we sit for lunch where humans are on the menu"

Robs feet are picking up speed and looks like he is getting away. The cockroach can't reach him yet because Rob is fast. The cockroach decided to stop. There is some kind of movement with his wings..........

NOT THE WINGS!

Now Rob is really frightened the distance between them are reducing rapidly. Rob has no chance of making it.

I can't watch this!

Have a nice lunch Rob! Nice knowing you!

Hold on a sec.

Rob?

ROB! Where did he go now... Rob!

Oh there he is hanging between two strips of wood on the ceiling...

The roach can't get to him now it is fluttering it’s wings and trying to pick him up from within the ceiling boards, but it can't reach far enough.

"Safe! Even if, I am hanging from the ceiling and “only” 2cm small!"
"Oh no…. How do I get out of here?"

"I can't let go. If I do then I will fall on to that fan and die"

Rob is now stuck if he climb up then he will be the lunch for a Roach if he let go of the ceiling then he will be torn to pieces by the already rotating fan.

What should he do now? Oh he is climbing the wire of the fan to get away from both the fan and the roach.

He gets to the wall eventually.

"Phew! At last the wall"

Rob is now climbing down the wall. Look like he is planning to get to the floor. Safe and sound!

"OH NO..........not again"

He lost his grip on the wire just as he touched the wall now he is falling.....

Falling.....

Falling.....

Falling.....

Oh he can grab that crack on the wall.

Missed it, but it broke his fall.

Rob just landed on a nail.

He got up holding on to it.

"Saved by the nail!"

"What do I do now?"

“Only one way to go. In to the wall”

There is a bit of a hole in the wall from where the nail came out from.
It is bigger than it looks from the outside!

“Wow this is one big puzzle!”

"Let’s see what we have here. Maybe I will wake up from this dream if I walk this way, or at least find a way out of this maze and not fall in trouble"

Rob is walking in between two rows of bricks......

This is taking him nowhere. There seem to be no end to this path.

"The bricks are a bit unsteady here, wonder why!"

Rob misses a step, and land on one of the bricks below him.

He is getting up gently so that he won’t hurt himself anymore... But.. As he is getting up he feels fear returning to him. As if… … As if he is surrounded.
He stands up just in time to be pushed back on the ground by a huge cockroach!

“Where do you think you are going pal?”

That voice does not come from the roach who pushed him over, but the one standing above his head……

“Oh my God I am surrounded by talking cockroaches!!!!!!!!!!!!”

“No buddy we have found a talking, miniature human!!!” That is the one who pushed him and pinned him down with one of the hind legs.
“Well in time for lunch too.. I am really hungry” The Fattest roach of all with fluffy wings look hungry indeed.
“Hey fatso YOU are always hungry!”

“Why should we eat him lets study him so we can learn about humans and learn so we can find better food sources” Says the roach standing tall on Robs right with nerdy looking black circles around his eyes.

“Let’s think about the future!!! As usual………..” Fatso rolls its eyes at the nerdy looking roach.
“What’s wrong with eating him up while he is in our captivity?”

“Ok, ok let’s take a vote on how we take care of this creature” Says the big black roach standing behind Rob.

“Raise your hands if you want to eat him!” only the fatso raise his hand.

“I agree with nerdy we should study him. If he doesn’t give us useful information then we will eat him” says the one pinning him down

“I can’t wait to see he fail, coz I would love to taste him.” Fatso is not going to make it easy for Rob.
“Hey you guys this is me you are talking about so don’t I have a say in my faith?”

“Obviously you don’t!” Fatso.

“Let’s take him to the prison”

“Yeah let’s”

“Some one will have to guard him too, Especially from Fatso!”

“Come on guys I am very innocent!!!!” Fatso.

“Not when it comes to food!”

Interesting…
Rob is being dragged away for experiments…… just like a guinea pig……Or rather guinea man! (If there was such a species in existence or maybe rob will be the first).

I am too inquisitive to leave rob alone at this hour, so lets follow him………..

They are dragging a screaming Rob away through the unsteady bricks in the wall….

Is this the family room of the house? Quite spacious and decorated with roach feathers, lets not forget the roaches too. Not only the party of four we met earlier, but many more. A little kingdom of Roaches!

Rob is too terrified to comment on it or even to breath.

They keep on dragging him until they throw him in between a few broken bricks, which I assume serves as a prison to the unwelcome guests or rather creatures to be experimented on.

It is getting darker wonder what they are planning to do with Rob!

Oh maybe I don’t want to know!

“Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!”

What is it now? He really need to work on the pitch of his scream no matter how much of a danger he is in.

Nerdy is caring a knife and walking towards Rob, Hence the scream.

Is Nerdy going to dissect Rob?

Oh no don’t want to see this……

“You don’t have to worry I was just going to cut you a piece of cheese, you like cheese don’t you?”

Huh!

“Hospitality? By Roaches I don’t believe this!”

“Don’t talk like I am not here. I can understand you remember.”

Looks like Nerdy is sensitive.

“Sorry didn’t mean to hurt you” says rob taking the piece of cheese Nerdy offer.

“Now let’s get to business”

This time no mistaking it Nerdy jumps on top of one of the rocks that hold Rob a prisoner, with the knife in hand and stabs him.

Rob fainted right away…….

“Hey am I dead?”

Isn’t that Rob? What happened? Where is he? Is he dead? Am I dead?

There he is. Lying on the roof caring a knife and about to stab a cockroach.
This time he is not 2cm tall but his actual size.

I don’t believe this…. Walking in on Robs daydreaming... What was I thinking!

So there you have it. My little story for the day!

A close call! (not exactly but the closest I have gotten so far I think!)

2009-02-22T11:32:00.005+05:30

When I saw the post by Sabby thought I should relate my experience too!

This was around 9'ish on the Friday!
I was totally absorbed in blogging checking out the blogs done by those who commented on mine, and was commenting on posts..... you know the drill.

Then they decide it is time to kill the power, and I was in the middle of trying to upload a profile picture(curses)! thought it was just one of those power cuts.

Since I cant do anything else I went looking for my mom, well she was looking for a candle for the next door lady, to see we have only one candle which was already burning at the time. Even the shops are out of candles. Then we decide to eat in the dark using the light from my book light (thank god for that, I hate eating in the dark!).

Then I heard fire crackers (i thought they were). Mom got scared and told me that they were firing. Initially it sounded far away then it got closer at one point it was almost like on top of the roof (I am pretty sure it didn't get close to our house but sounded very much like that!). Then we decided that we don't want to die in case a stray bullet come our way, so we crawled under my bed! (now I feel stupid saying this - but bullets are deadly).

Guess what my neighbors did instead! They were sight seeing! I heard them standing out side the houses and talking about the lights, counting the shots etc! How dumb can they get?

After the firing went down we crawled out, and started to have dinner in the dark! (one have to survive after all). Actually I had rice for the dessert, but answered a lot of calls for dinner (-_*)! all our friends and family were checking up on us! including hijinx who wanted to make sure mom and I have not merged in to a single piece!

This made me realise that how horrible it must be for the soldiers out there in the north, both the SL ARMY and LTTE! no I am not a LTTE supporter but they are also human, I THINK!

I simply don't understand the purpose of having a war!

My dream your dream our dream!

2009-02-20T10:16:00.000+05:30

Filled with colors
Sparkling with light
dancing in the dark
chased by the wind
even cruel people!

the mystry
and the fear of revelation
of the truth
or your mistakes

running away
from life
facing the truth
about desire

it is a story worth telling
but held back by
the fear for revealing
your true colors

dreams are to be loved
while they last in the night
but thought about
when you are awake

because they are all about
the thoughts that
fear hold back
from rest of the world!

A Tall Day!

2009-02-20T09:56:00.000+05:30

I am the happiest girl today in my office! You might ask why!
Well, for those of you who know me ....
"Chris just told me that I've gotten a bit taller!" (Yippiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!)

For those of you who doesn't know me..
Yes I am quite short and my friends call me 3 feet no inches - in exageration!
but I am a bit taller than that!
So one of my lifes dreams would be to put on a few inches more to my body structure!

Speaking of being short there are plus points of being shrot too.
Like being able to hide behind tall people from both people and the hot sun.
And to find the best view giving
"Hey I cant see from over there would you mind moving so I can see better"
as a excuse to get in front of the line/crowd.
Even to climb on some thing that is taller than the normal view!
It is also not that hard to reach the ground when you have dropped some thing or crawl under a table to find that pencil you dropped! (some thing people who have big bellys hate doing!) This reminds me of my father who refuses to sit on the floor because of his belley. He will always go look for a chair or a bench at alms givings.
That is also some thing I am good at like sitting cross legged on the ground or even on any chair/table, which amuse a lot of people! (-_*)

Now I am running out of ideas as to why it is good to be short, so I shall stop before I forget the good mood I am in.

So thanks Chris for making my day today!

Begining of the poem............

2009-02-18T20:36:00.000+05:30

Here I am with my first post
I must be insane......
to think I could maintain
a regular post

Thought I must
was told I should
but........ here I am with a doubt
and thinking If I could.........

I still have a profile to update...
posts to be made
Pictures to share....
but........ will anyone care?

step by step as I conclude
obtaining the fulfillment
of having the blog complete

hope you will enjoy the increment
and reward me with a compliment