Darkness

Hi guys

Sorry I was gone for a long long time. I got sick for over two weeks. It was horrible. Then I was still recovering from it and not in any mood to blog or to even talk with some of my friends. Felt so lonely and annoyed at the whole world. Below is exactly how I felt during that time.

In the broad day light
where thoughts float
around with the darkness
Darkness from the sky
Darkness filled in the heart
Darkness from the night
Darkness in the corner
Darkness in the heart
It is the shadow I see
of you.........
Black in color .... no white around
I begin to hate you
any thing that you touch
but it is all the darkness in my thoughts
that made you black

I hate you for all my faults
I hate you for the mistakes I do
I hate you for the accidents in life
I hate all of you for just being you!
but...................

Reality await me
I am yet to understand
that it is I who I hate
It is my world that is falling
you are just you
but I am the darkness
in my world
I need to wake from this nightmare
before it consumes me
before I lose sanity

At the end of this stream of thoughts it is time for medicine. Then I would go back into the darkness. Now I am suddenly seeing the light. It is as if I am seeing it for the first time.

Thank god I am better and back to normal!