Why do shadows from past come back? Do we put them behind us or beside us?

I really need an answer to that question!

This is unfair just when I decide that it is time to move on, Life grab me and hold me back not letting me go. And my mother she teams up with my enemy (X-boyfriend)and she helps him. How fair is this? He decide to leave and I have to leave, now when he want to come back I have to let go of all my pain suffering & guard(because my mom is involved). No I am not going to do that.

I am so angry no not angry confused and very annoyed to write anymore! This is annoying! and have no idea what I've written. cant be bothered reading either!
I hate this.